Jan. 13, 2005 What strange faces Brandon and Seth are both making. So, everyone will be happy to know that my divorce papers are being filed today. And since I filed( and not Chris) it's been paid for and will actually go thru now. Sadly enough the lawyer (Zeilinski) wasn't at all shocked that we had been seperated since Dec. 2000. Or that we both had significant others. Now why is this such a common thing? Bah. It's only paper to me. I mean, what IS marriage , really? In the bible it says that basically, cheating is the only reason for divorce. Chris was seeing Jodi behind my back while I thought that we were trying to resolve our issues. So does that really justify my divorce? Will I ever feel 100% okay about the whole issue? Who knows. But if marriage is more about my relationship (in my heart) than it is on a silly piece of paper(they didn't have paper in biblical times, right?) then just maybe in God's eyes I've been divorced from Chris for almost 5 years and I have nothing to worry about. Either way, he's an impossible, assinine, disrespectful, loving but uncaring type of jerk and I am just thrilled to death that I soon cannot even jokingly call him my husband. :) Yea!